Thursday, December 23, 2004
Next day morning, I was picked up by YL and drove to join our Master's Saturday seminar over at the Big Chan Center alone with about 2,000 other practitioners. It is required to wear a robe while visiting the Big Chan Center, so YL managed to borrow one for me.
Then I was told to stay in line withe guys on the right, and YL left me to stay in line with the gals. I was ushered to sit down about 30 yards away from the stage. I looked left and right, I knew no one. Since I had not visited Taiwan for 23 years, it was obvious that no one knows me either. I became less nervous.
"Oh well, let me just experience the Qi of this big hall", I said to myself. I have heard so much of its powerful energy. There was still about 30 minutes before the lecture starts, I figured that I might as well as experience it for a while.
As soon as I crossed my legs into an easy pose, a strong energy entered into my Root Chakra and quickly reach my Chan Chakra. In about two seconds, tears just came down my cheeks without stopping. I did not feel joyful nor sadness. I was consciously quite alert and not a bit emotional at all. I was not in mood for tears, but I could not stop the tears. For about 15 minutes, I could not control myself. Simultaneously I smelled strong Sandalwood incense. The funny thing was my nose is usually pretty bad that I usually didn't smell nothing, even when my wife burned some incense at our own house. And there was no one burning any incense anywhere in the Big Hall that I could see. I also found out later that our Master was not even in Taipei that day. He spoke from our GaoXiong Center in the south and just piped his speech through real time video to all centers.
Tuesday afternoon, time had come for YL and I to see our Master for the first time. He stood up to greet us and asked us to sit down first. He was not tall, but kind, considerate and humble. I immediately felt comfortable with him. He asked me of how was I initiated into this school. As soon as I started to reply, my tears started to come down again. Oh, man, I became a cry baby. Immediately, he said, "Okay, okay, let us just start the ceremony then." He was very accommodating.
I knelt down in front of him and he stood. While he was delivering all the blessings to me, I said to him silently, "Sorry Sir, I have heard that you are in charge of my spiritual well being now." Immediately I felt relieved.
Guess what, in no time, he said, "Here is your Dharma name, Jue Miao Jing Ming....." Wow, I started to cry again, because I have also heard that, in the last twenty years, there was perhaps only one or two person was ordained with a Dharma name at the time of taking refuge. This was a tremendous recognization and gift.
In our school, there is no written doctrine stating the qualification or process for obtaining an ordination. It is entirely up to our Chan Master. He would recognize the inner quality of the one who is to be ordained. I was totally shocked that I was recognized that I had some of these qualities.
He gave me a gold ring with a Swastika on it and told me not to take it off. I have seen that ring on the fingers of about 50 ordained teachers in our school.
No more than 5 minutes total. No robe, no head shaving, no stamping of document, no incense burning. Nothing, just a transmission from heart to heart.
Then, I teared my way out of His office.
It was November 30, 2004.
Tuesday, December 7, 2004
Alan Watts （1915-1973）是英國的近代思想家。他說，“我如同尺寸或分秒”。也就是說，“我”只是一個衡量點，可大可小，不可觸摸，並不存在。“我識”始於父母的衡量， 如小胖，乖寶。“我識”形成於親情朋友之比較，如小氣，美麗，高貴。“我識”立足於社會立足的需要，如成功，尊敬，失敗。
Mu Soeng 是韓國佛學家。在他的英譯金剛經中提起，“為人一生所學習的智識，最多只是第二手或第三手。而大多數極可能是第千萬手。” 試想，我們的成長過程中，所有智識，無不從朋友，父母，師長，書本，新聞而來。可能沒有是第一手的。
Dr. Wayne Dyer 是美國近代的思想家。 他說，“我們都是同一個宇宙之能量所創造的。當它創造了你與我之後，它不停地為這世界造花，造草，不曾休息，不問收獲。而你我都是被創造者。因此我們都應有繼續創造的能力。我們應該反省的是我們有繼續為這世界在努力嗎？還是我們常常批判，厭惡世事，因而原地踏步，不再創造？”