Tuesday, December 11, 2007

如是我聞

我家師姐,前兩天與我分享,奧修對于『如是我聞』的見解。

為什么,阿難不說,『佛祖說』,而阿難總是用『如是我聞』。

為什么,佛祖與我們的師父,都不要我們寫筆記呢?

為什么,每次看同樣的一張,印心禪法的DVD,都會聽到師父說一些,以前所沒有聽到的話呢?

我們真的了解,清楚,記得,師父說的,每一句話,或每一個字嗎?還是只聽到一部分?

以後,我們用,『我聽師父說』,還是用『師父說』?

我們有執著在『你聽與我聽』的不同嗎? 或 『你不了解師父』或『我比較了解師父』嗎?

Monday, December 3, 2007

『想』這個字

常常見到許多同修,在哪兒想來想去。分析,思考,歸類,了解,消化,總結,等等。『心』都是被『腦』所遮住了。常常不知如何可以協助他們打開心門。

今天早上,與我們家師姐,在散步的時候,有了領悟。

『想』這個字,不就是把『相』放在『心』上嗎?

哇塞,古人真厲害。

『相』在『心』上,當然『心』是開不了。

『心』若不開,那又如何『相印』呢?

師父常常提醒我們要,『離相修行』,『與師相印』 ,不是嗎?

放下我們的腦袋,打開我們的心門,是第一步。

開悟之后,修行是靠相印的。

願共勉之。

Thursday, November 29, 2007

What Are We Really Cultivating? (v.III)

We were often taught that we were cultivating our Qi as we sit. With Qi, we purify our body, then our mind, then spiritual connection will come. I often wondered about that term of spirituality?

Throughout my practice, however, I have experienced different states of myself. When my mind is at peace and in a state of stillness, my body is at still, emotionless, I can feel that I am connected to the people around me, or even away from me. No matter what I say, or not say, we are connected and communicating.

On the other hand, if my body and mind are disconnected, no matter what I say or do, I am not connecting to anyone or anything. In short, I suspect that there is an invisible level of communication that I am sometimes experiencing, if I could get myself into a certain state of stillness.

Until yesterday, I found my answer in one of the books by our Master. As we sit, we are really cultivating our spiritual power. This is the underlying power which could transform materials and phenomenon. This is the power could be in sync with the universal truth. This is the power that has no boundary, no judgment, no logic, pure and omnipotent.

The word Our Master used in his Chinese text was "integrate/unify" spiritual power. Meaning our attention or awareness is usually diverse or dispersed here and there - hand, books, TV, food. We need to unify all of our awareness into one central one. When that happens, not all the stimulus still could be sense, and at the same time we are not affected by it. Better still, we can even sense "more", as well as having the "spiritual power" to affect.

Some suggested that this is what we called "focus", yet based on my experience, it is more than just the act of "focus", it is a "spiritual power" that we are cultivating.

I am not sure I am explaining it right. It is something to be practiced and experienced.

Thank you, Master.

I am very grateful.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

『坐』禪與『做』禪

今年十月的時候,回到臺灣,在一頓晚飯后,已經十點多了,親眼見到師父,為了與眾同修說再見,獨自站在路邊的冷風里,等候尚未離店的同修們。我勸了師父兩次,“師父,您請先回吧!”,師父都沒有答應。一個人默默地等著,一直到所有同修都到齊了,與師父道了晚安,師父才上車回家。

從少林寺回來時候,我大約是倒數第六,七個上機的。前面已上了大約一百多位同修了。一上機,就看到師父,好像在找人。還沒來得及跟師父問安,師父已急急忙忙地問,“洋蓮呢?我在等洋蓮。”

“洋蓮師姐在我后面,師父。”,我說。但我心里在想,師父真有愛心,等了一百多人了,還在等。 我真是自嘆不如。

我當下領悟到了,禪還是要『行』的。光是『修』是不夠的。只是『坐』禪是不夠的,禪也同時要『做』的。唯有在做了以后,才有體驗,才有信心,才有能量。

修行是一體兩面的。唯有行在一起,才能心在一起。

這次結緣班的檢討會中, 有許多的同修提出了許多寶貴的意見。都是發自肺腑的珍貴之言。我們深深的知道,心都是在一起的。

我們的這些珍貴的肺腑之言,要如何體現呢?Emily師姐建議說,先從護持每一堂課開始。然後每一位同修再接引兩位同修來。而來了以后呢,必須與他們同進同退,護持到底。

她提醒了我們,修行與我們每一個人的生活一樣,是“知易行難”的。“光說不練”,是無效的。

我們不但要『坐』禪,更要『做』禪。唯有『做過的禪』,才是『自己的禪』。

心里想的禪,或是了解了他人說的禪,不能成為自己的禪。不是自己的禪,是沒有力量的禪。不但渡不了自己,更渡不了別人。

我深深的悟道了,真是感恩師父。

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Meeting with Our Teacher III

Before I forget, the following is a brief summary of the meeting with our Teacher on October 9, 2007.

1.  English translatation needs to be easier for westerner to understand instead of more precise to the Chinese original text.

2.  Web site content could be availabe to every visitor instead of hiding before a mandatory registration.

3.  He will be visiting Los Angeles soon.

4.  He agrees to set up special internal organization to connect all businessman into one network to help out with resoure management.

5.  Just observe the chakra is not enough, practitioners need to penetrate into the center of each chakra.   Power of each chakra, like everything else, is concentrated more in the center.  Focus and concentrate and penetrate and absorb those energy of each chakra.

6.  He loves red bean and taro ice cream, and thus treated each one of us with one large scoop of each.  Yummy..

That is all for now.

We are all very grateful.

Shilo, Emily, Sister Young Lien and me.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Invisible Causes

We live in a world of visual, audible, tasteful messages.

Too often, we made judgment based on what we saw, encountered or heard. We did so because we received these physical messages through our senses.

Too often, we thought these were the real life events, because we can see, hear, touch or feel them. These experience are in physical forms.

Too often, in our haste to survive or to defend, we made judgment or react quickly based on what we see, hear or feel.

If we delay our reaction a bit, take some time to explore, calm our emotions, put ourselves in stillness, we will soon discover, these are merely effects and not causes.

Causes are usually invisible, untouchable, indescribable and in the past. In Buddhist terms, causes are actually the "real forms", while the effects we experience physically are actually the "empty forms".

The only way to truly be in sync with the causes, as well as causes of causes, is to have a mind not affected by effects. Practice meditation helps us to purify our thoughts, assumptions, judgments as well as enhance our inner spirit to be in touch with the invisible universal causes.

In essence, we could then undertake the karma of others and in turn we are able to liberate our own suffering from all the effects, which were merely physical manifestation of the causes.

This state of nothingness are sometimes labeled as understanding, awakening, compassion, etc.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

人要開開心心的活著

大家都同意,我們活著的目的,是要開心。當我們活得開心時,世界是美好的,花開了,鳥在歌唱,沒有任何煩惱,任何事都可以商量,幾乎,無論什麽人,都是可愛的,因爲在開心的時候,我們的心是“開”著的。

但是當我們不開心的時候,花開了沒,也不知道,如果鳥在唱歌,更會覺得煩,甚至於,沒有事是可以商量的,或趕開自己的朋友。因爲我們的心關了。

為什麽,有時候我們的心,是關著的呢?那是因爲,有時候,我們不能接受別人,又有時候,是別人不能接受我們。有時候,是因爲我們不了解別人,又有時候,是別人不了解我們。每一個人都有不得已的苦衷。不是嗎?

但是我們都知道,無論我們的心,是開的,或是關的,鳥一樣在唱歌,花一樣在綻放,月亮一樣圓,太陽一樣溫馨,世界一樣美好。不是嗎?

我們的心,常常在一念之間就關了。有時候,連自己都不知道為什麽。有時候是爲了面子,有時候是爲了保護自己,有時候是以爲自己最有道理。因此常常,失去了,學習新的知識,或結交新的朋友的機會,更可惜的是,失去了開心的機會。

中國的字,很巧妙。如果要開心,則必須“開”心。

一旦心打開了,就沒有了罫礙,一切都能接受,或考慮,一切都OK。也就是說,心一旦開了,就接到了世界的智慧了。心開,或不開,由誰決定呢?不就是在自己的一念之間嗎?

對錯與好壞,只是角度的不同,不要再用自己有限的知識與經驗,來過濾宇宙間,無限的學問,不要再關上心門,活在自己的心裡,放棄執著,忘了罫礙,打開我們的心, 接受一切,在這有限的生命理,開開心心的享受一切,因爲我們的靈性,遠超出我們的知識。

師父說,“心開見佛”,心一開,就能接到,宇宙間的智慧,那也就是所謂的“禪的智慧及生命力”,那時,我們就會法喜充滿,毫無罫礙,自由自在。

有些人可以立即放下,立即開心,那就是所謂的頓悟。頓悟到了什麽呢?悟到自己,是心的奴隸,而不是心的主人。

如果我們放不下,開不了心,那唯有努力禪坐,好好的修心一途。因爲唯有開心,才沒有執著。沒有執著,才能離相,為有離相,才能上菩薩道。

金剛經說,萬法為識,佛心印心。佛心印不了,不開的心。

六祖譠經裡的,“無念”

禪宗六祖,慧能的,六祖譠經裡的,“無念”的意義, 就是每一個念頭,都是獨立的,每一個念頭,都與上一個念頭,不相關,才是生活的方式。

過去已不存在,過去,只存在,在我們的腦海裡。

將來也不存在,因為將來還沒來到。

唯有現在,才是真實的,存在的。

把握現在,才是有價值的。

現在的這一個念頭,如果被上一個,已過去的,念頭影響,將看不清,真正的現在。

保持自己的清靜,與無念,才是生活的真實意。

無念時,不會批評他人,因為沒有依據。

無念時,不會懲罰自己,因為沒有過去。

無念時,不會浪費現在,因爲沒有將來。

無念時,可以讓自己,立即重新開始。

無念,就是一切煩惱的解脫。

無念,就是全新將來的開始。

三秒鐘的菩薩心,菩薩行

師父說,“如果我說的法,你沒有因此開悟,我等於沒說。”

那麽,何為“因此開悟”呢?如何又能確認,我是“因此開悟”了呢?如果,我把師父說的法背得滾瓜爛熟,是否就是開悟了呢?

開悟是“開了我們的心門,悟了新的道理,並在行爲上顯現”。因為此“法”,而影響了我們的思考與行爲,抛棄了以往習性,而不再重復以往的行爲與思考方式。至少,清淨了我們的身,口,意。

開悟就是等於:「我醒了,我要改。」因此開悟是一種反省,是一種懺悔,是一種感恩,更是一種新的開始。

也許這就是為什麽,每當我們“悟”時,都有一種感恩與懺悔的心。更有一種暗暗的法喜。

法爲體,悟為用。聞法頌法,如鸚鵡。聞法無悟,如石頭。

如果我是因此開悟了,那我又如何能確認呢?如何在成佛之前,一步一腳印的上佛道呢?最好的參考就是「菩薩心,菩薩行」了。

菩薩是沒有分別心的。菩薩是能接受一切的。菩薩是大悲大慈的。

因爲,菩薩了解,宇宙的一切,都是禪的大生命力與大智慧力所緣生的。衆生都因爲因果,及業力的牽引,而不能自己。因此,菩薩是能接受衆生的無名,菩薩是大悲大慈的,能接受一切苦厄的。

因此,如果我們開悟了,就表示,至少我們的身,口,意,開始清淨了。如果,我們的身,口,意,開始清淨了,我們就可以開始向菩薩學習及看齊了。不是嗎?

如果我們不再輕易的下斷語,如果我們不再批評他人,如果我們不再用“我的意識”為準則,也就是沒有“我”這個意念,再也不用“我”這個字,我們就“悟了我執”。

如果我們能戰戰兢兢的,行菩薩行,修菩薩心,那我們總有一天“斷了我執”。斷了我執,已是完成了第一步了。不是嗎?

師父常說,“開悟起修” 及“菩薩起修”。

因此,開悟及菩薩,可以說是一體兩面的。因此,也許在開口說每一句話之前,在動每一個念之前,給自己三秒鍾的時間,來準備,與起自己的菩薩心,讓自己,以菩薩之心,而行菩薩之行。如此一來,將早日圓滿。

接引的挑戰 – 同心同體

禪是一真,是不二。我們接引的工作也不例外。

我們與我們接引的對象應該是一體一心,而不二的。也就是說,我們與我們接引的對象不能對立,或有所分別。如果對立的話,就接不進來了。因爲我們本來就是同體的,本來就是同為宇宙的一部分。

如三祖僧璨的信心銘所說,我們若與禪相應,我們就是宇宙,就能包容一切,沒有好與壞、對與錯的立場,而能夠不立兩邊。當我們站在某一邊時,我們只是相應了禪的一部分,而非全部。當我們有了分別心時,我們不但沒有接受另一邊,還迫使我們的對象和我們站在同一邊,而他往往因此而站在另一邊。

我們的工作是來「協助」他人「真心開悟」,讓人了解我們是同體同心的,而非強迫他人接受我們的意見或立場。當我們有了分別心時,我們的心裏並沒有接受他人,是我們自己沒有開悟,沒有平常心,來了解及接受對方的心,了解對方的苦痛與無奈,以及對方的「心」不由己。是我們沒有與他同體,沒有同心,沒有與禪相印。

每當我們開口,我們就有可能表達某一個看法或立場。當下,我們就有可能在逼我們的對象作一選擇 – 同意或不同意。這是很危險的。有可能當下就增加了對象的罣礙,更防礙了他修行的因緣。

我們與我們接引的對象,本來就都是無明的,都不夠明白,都有一定程度的痛苦,都不能夠解脫。

如果修行人只是在口頭上弘法,或只是表揚師父的偉大,或只是形容印心禪法的殊勝,那只是在表達了修行人個人的立場,而強迫他人接受而已。這樣是無法「攝取衆生,莊嚴衆生」的。那更不是弘法的目的。

師父說過,“我説法,你若不因此開悟,引爲己用,我等於沒說。”

我們接引的工作不也是一樣嗎?因此,我們不能忽略了接引對象的無明,及業力的牽引,一般人大都是無法當下開悟的。我們必須以平等心,了解對方的「心」不由己,「我」的執著,失落在對比的價值觀内,協助破除他的矛盾,讓他解脫、開悟。放下我們的焦急,用我們的智慧,保持我們的清淨,與禪相應,才能與他人同體同心。

修行人的工作是來「協助」他人開悟,進而達到「清淨,智慧,圓滿,圓覺」。光表達自己的立場與看法,不但無法達到目的,反而容易造成對立。
每當我們開口時,必須小心在意,尤其是當師父法身住位時,更應如是。爲了真正的普渡衆生,無論對方是多麽的無明,或多麽的不精進,我們都得與禪相應,用平等心、慈悲心,站在對方的立場,以智慧處之。

禪是真正的平等,真正的慈悲,真正的圓滿。

圓滿了他人,才能圓滿自己。同時,圓滿了他人,自己也能接到更大的證量,因爲禪是有圓滿性,平衡性的。尤其是當對方特別無明,或特別不精進時,我們更要了解,那是我們的共「業」。爲了我們的如來家業, 我們必須接受,更必須圓滿。

不能爲了維持我們個人的或我們小團體的清淨,或以爲因緣不夠,而耽誤了接引衆生的如來大業。是因爲我們自己修得不夠好,才會覺得眾生不清淨。我們必須再接再厲,努力清淨,幫助衆生解脫業力。

他人的業力,也就是我們的業力,這是我們的因緣共業,必須要圓滿的。試想如果我們周遭的人業力沉重時,我們能個人清淨嗎?

因此,圓滿了他人的業,如同圓滿自身的業,進而達到真正的「清淨,智慧,圓滿,圓覺」。

預祝各位師姐、師兄,接引順利,廣結善緣,功德圓滿。

「圓滿」的第一步

當我們遇到不如意的人或事的時候,自然的反應是先保護自己。因此,我們造了一堵圍牆,先把自己隔了開來。它是它,我是我。好安全。

爲了自圓其説,我們有可能更進一步怪罪他人,而使自己獲得内心的安寧。但是我們仍然在城裏,不如意的問題仍然在城外。雙方繼續僵持不下。

當我們不如意的問題越多時,城牆就越高。如果城内有問題時,我們也一樣隔開處理,於是城内的空間越變越小,而我們可活動的地方,也越來越小。

因此,城内的我,也越來越不快樂。好像我們的這個世界,是個不講道理的世界。我們生活在一群無知、或不愛我的人中。那該怎麽辦呢?如何脫離這個苦海呢?如何超越我們處境呢?

此時,就是我們來檢討「超越」的時候了。「超越」必須有目標。有東西才能「超越」,不是嗎?如果我們把我們要「超越」的問題放在城外,而我們在城内,它永遠是它,我永遠是我,永遠無法「超越」,不是嗎?

我們必須把城牆拆掉,或把問題納入城裏,才有對象超越。因此「接納」是超越的第一步。那接納以後怎麽辦呢?

我們首先要檢討的,是何謂「不如意」?「不如意」就是不如「我們」的意。對方不賛同,而我們又堅持。雙方繼續僵持不下。

因此,「圓滿」則是超越的第二步。如果大家都不僵持,有得商量,彼此都讓一步,不就解決了嗎?不就「圓滿」了嗎?

圓滿是需要慈悲心的。達賴喇嘛說:「“慈悲就是承擔對方的業力。」每一個人都有他的苦衷,或他的不得已。如果,我們不受「五毒」的影響,放棄對他人的評估,進一步的,「無我」地了解他人的痛苦,承擔他的業力,也就是承擔我們的共業,斷了這一條的因果輪迴。

試想,當我們條條的因果,都能圓滿,就不再輪迴,不就都「圓滿」了嗎?

我們的師父說:「圓滿才能圓覺」。成佛前,都得圓滿。

若要「萬事圓滿」,「接納萬事」是第一步。

換言之,如果我們能「接納萬事」,我們就已經解脫,無罣礙可言,豈不快哉。

Monday, September 17, 2007

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Connected To Our Teacher

My mother in law is visiting us from Taiwan for about 45 days. Since she does not know English, nor how to drive, she has no choice but to tag along with us everyday.

The second time, when she sat down with us listening to our Teacher's DVD, she began to sweat for about five minutes. Then every time thereafter. During our Santa Barbara retreat, whenever our Teacher's DVD is played, she sweats. She was bit worried. We were not, because we knew, our Teacher was cleaning her.

Finally today at our Los Angeles session, she cried. She began to cry as soon as the DVD began. She cried throughout the entire 45 minute session without stopping.

Then she apologized to everyone for being so out of control.

To her surprise, we all congratulated her, because too many of us had similar experience. We asked her, "this is not the tear of joy or sadness. This is the tear because you found home. Right?" She nodded.

Well, here is a connection to our Teacher, experienced by many of us already, through different media.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

The Magic Word

Is there a short cut to think, speak and act more effective in line with the teachings of Chan?

I have learned a simple word to help me rid of dualistic views, assumptions and judgments.  The magic word is "we".

If I minimize the usage of "you and me", or "yours and mines", just use "we and our", I can quickly harmonize my views and my perspective holistically and viewing the world with greater understanding of its causation and effects.  We differ just  in the various versions of "our" manifestation.

By using this magic word, "we", in my writing and thinking, I manage to quickly abandon my point of view and the position that I am defending or even taking.  Thus, I can quickly reunite with others instead being separated from the "Whole".

Through Sitting Chan, we can even experience the "we", cherish it and sort of in love with it.  This wonderful quiet practice enable us to be connected not just within ourselves but also with others as well as the universe, including the animals and plants.

After we experience "suchness", we would instinctively know how little we are; how unimportant our views and opinions are; how are we interconnected to everything else.

A deep bowl to every practitioners who cherish this practice.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Real World

Lately the word of "real world" keeps on popping up. It seems to suggest that other world may be the unreal world, or spiritual world, or impractical world.

Actually, there is only one world and it differs depending on one's realization.

Imaging our is this stage, where a real live incident is being played out - romance, murder, suffering, happiness. Then there is back stage, where everyone is just an actor or an actress, normal people playing different roles. Then there is the director, script writer and producer. Then there is the creativity of the writer and the visualization of the directors. Then there are the incidents which triggered and influenced the creativities and the visualization. Then there are the incidents which trigger the incidents, which trigger the incidence.

Now, which one is real? The one in front of us, at the back of it, the directing, the producing, or the writing or the incidents which triggered it?

Accordingly Buddha, there is only one thing real - the life force. Everything else is just its manifestation. If we sync to it, it will manifest through us.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Kind and Gentle Words

In one of the online discussion groups I participated, someone posted to remark that I often use "kind and gentle" words. Did I? I was surprised to see these two adjectives. I have not seen them for quite awhile. Hmm. What is going on?

As a Chan practitioner, I try my best to accept everything in front, around, inside and outside of me, whether I understood, agree or disagree. I have learned after awhile, though I may suffer some mental anquish at the beginning, somehow the truth always surface.

In turn, my heart is cleansed, my faith is strengthened and my life force increased in volume. I often end up with the one who benefit more.

In stead of winning a battle of reasons, morality and other human measurements. Their hearts were connected, communicated and loved. Their mental anguish were relieved and karma were reduced. They felt something, in human terms, of "kindness and gentleness".

I have learned that each one of us has our own realization, our own path and our own timing. All we have to do as fellow practitioners is to accept everyone and everything as is. Embrace everyone and everythig to be in touch with the life force of the universe. Soon or later, this life force of Chan will manifest through to liberate those who could be connected with.

Just be patient, be connected, the universe will unfold itself.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Heart Chakra

For the last three weeks, my Heart Chakra is becoming bigger and bigger. Its energy not only transmits to the tips of my hands, top of my head, as well as my legs. I also become easily moved or affected by emotions.and cry a lot.

Last night, during my session, my Heart Chakra becomes as big as my entire torso. When it pumps, my entire torso is pumping. After two years, I am already confident that this is not a heart disease.

Yet I am also curious, is this what our Master described as "coming out"? Is it?

Thursday, March 8, 2007

More energy with less food

Ever since October of 2006, I energy level has increased and I no longer can feel the physical discomfort of others.

When I meditated, the chi will be at wherever I observe. I always curious as to what will happen to me next. Now that I have crossed into another unknown territory.

It has been six month now, I noticed that I don't feel hungry as easier. I ate less, but I had more energy. I don't get tired that easily. My weight dropped by 5 pounds from 180 to 175.

My black spots, from forty years of golfing without protection, on my face, body and arms grew lighter and smaller.

I said to Emily at today's yoga class, "Hmm. This is getting really interesting. I maybe becoming younger."

Study The Experience

After participating with online discussion forums for 8-9 months, I have finally realized why my master taught only Sitting Chan for the first fifteen years without teaching any of the sutras.

I have realized that there was an important understanding about the sutras before we read them. That is all the sutras are about Buddha's enlightened mind. The sutra records his experience and his witness of his synchronization with the universe.

It is an experience with an invisible, indescribable energy which can only be connected with and difficult to be read, understand or comprehend by our mind. For instance, how can we study the taste of an apple. How can we study a Marathon run? How can we read about love?

If we had the connection with the life force of the universe,,,
  • we would know instinctively that "form is emptiness and emptiness is form" because they are both manifested by the life force.
  • We would know instinctively, "... all Dharma that is voiced, stated, written, documented are not Dharma", because it is not the life force itself.
  • We would know instinctively, "... seeing all forms as no form, thus see true form..." means all forms are just effects and the life force is the true cause.
If we experience of the life force and wisdom of the universe, there will be no interpretation necessary, every word in the sutra will be clear and precise.

Why do so many teachers both to explain and interpret the sutras for all the mind. There is really no short cut.

I decided to meditate more and more and more.

For many there are so close yet so far.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Normal Again

Nowadays, whenever I calm down, I can just feel the Chi running throughout my body. Wherever I focus, it is there. From top of the head to the tips of the legs and the end of my toes.

When I meditate, Chi from my Heart Chakra just rush through to the tips of my hands like a river flowing.

Often I become worried, simply because I am not used to these energies. Is it highblood pressure. Is it high blood sugar? Is it a heart condition? Where does energy come from?

So this morning, I ask the Blood Presure Meter what is going on. It was 109/70 with pause at 67. Relief....

One week ago, after we had lunch, I need to replace the battery in my mother's blood sugar meter. I have no one but myself to test it making sure that it does work. So the result of my blood sugar came in at 87. Tthat was one hour after lunch.

What can I say? I am normal, yet blessed.

I am grateful.

Friday, March 2, 2007

What is after this?

Marvin is a terminal cancer patient at Fountain Valley Hospital. I visited him at his request.

He had only one question, "What is after this?"

Wow, I have never even thought about this myself. How do I answer a big question as such to a dying man?

The following was my reply.

Hi Marvin, I shall try to answer your question to the best of my knowledge. But that is only for your reference. Please do not consider my reply as being the only truth. And I shall try to answer it without using any religious references. Okay? Marvin nodded.

There are two parts of us. There is the physical part and the spiritual part. Let us talk about the physical part first. That is easier.

As you know our body is made from the food we ate, the air we inhaled and the sun's rays we tanned by. When we die, our body decomposes into moistures, ashes, gases, etc. The earth will redistribute these elements into the air, for other plants or animals. So in essence, our body did not really disappear. It just redistributes itself. As you may already know, that it is medically proven, that our body rejuvenates itself every seven years. In other words, every seven years, practically every cell in our body is a new one. Our body sort of recycles itself periodically anyway.

Now, let us talk about the spirit of ours. As you know, everyone of us is different. Some are kind. Some are ferocious. Some are happy and some are not. These are the spiritual side of us. These are like energies which we all can feel and sense and transmit. Right?

So, as you know energy never dies. It just transforms. It transforms from static energy to dynamic energy and vica versa. Anyone who ever studied science can tell you that. For instance, a match can turn into fire and a fire can turn into heat. And heat can cause breeze.

Therefore our spirit never dies, it just transforms. When this spritual energy combines with some of the physical elements of this earth, another living thing emerges. It could be a tree, a dog or a human.

Well, this is best way that I can answer your questions.

Yet, if you will, I like to recommend that you practice the belly breathing which Ed taught you and do not think about these things. Okay.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Coughing

Birdie meditated with us two years ago. Then she wondered off to study Chinese medicine, Christianity and other Buddhist schools to find remedy for her weak health.

She arrived at 10am on Thursday, March 22, 2007 to our house. And she left at 2-2:30 in the afternoon. She talked and talked and shared her experiences with us. I did not say much. I focused on my chi flow, stayed calm and just listened, because I know that was what she was looking for.

Upon her leaving, she said to me, "Due to my physical condition, I usually become dead tired after two hours of talking. But strangely today, I have been talking for four hours and not feeling tired."

Later on in the evening, Emily felt tight throat and congested chest. For the next three days, she thought that she was coming down with a cold, but nothing really happened other than just discomfort. On the fourth day, she told me that she felt like to cough, but nothing from the throat. Her discomfort was coming from the lung.

Then we realized her discomfort was due to the karma of Birdie.

How did I know? Because that's exactly what happened when Emily took over Dolly's cough and made it her own a while back. Just in one session, Dolly was recovered and Emily was coughing badly.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Conscious & Subconscious

Yesterday, Ed called wanted to know whether it makes any sense for me to talk to Marvin. Marvin was his neighbor in the hospital right now. Doctor already notified Marvin's family that he has less than six months. Ed was a bit frustrated because he always wanted Marvin to come with him to meditate and Marvin always managed to go back to live his old ways. Yet I can sense Ed really hoped that I talk to Marvin.

At 3:30pm phone rang. On the other end, Ed gave the phone to Marvin. Then a faint voice said, "Hi Donald. I have one more thing that I need to do. I don't know what it is. However, I do have a request." "Of course, Marvin" I said. "Can you come here and talk to me?" "Sure."

That night I call Sister Young Lien seeking advise. I have not had the experience encountering terminal cancer patients. She said, "Bring the gold Buddha card and place it on his pillow. Bring the Gheda, Gheda Music for him to listen to and wear our Master's hand to have more power. Before you go, report to our master of the entire incident......" As I was listening to "....report to our Master...", a force come through my Chan Chakra. My tears come right out. This force hits my Heart Chakra and warmed up my entire body. Everything happened in an instance, before Sister Young Lien finished her sentence, I interrupted her to tell her, "... suddently I have tears in my eyes."

At our Meditation hall, at USC retreat, etc. I had similar experiences, but during those times I was somewhat ready or maybe even expecting it. But this time, it was completely unexpected. It occurred while I was having a normal conversation with clear consciousness on the conversation.

Half an hour later, it downed on me. While Sister Young Lien was advising me to report to our Master, I was visualize "my report" already subconsciously." While my consciousness was in the conversation, my subconscious linked up with our Master. Immediately his Dharma Body was present for me to be connected with.

I am honestly shocked and grateful.

I also learned that the universe works with no regard to the activities of our consciousness.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Bigger Pipe

I was told many times that karma visits those with "cleaner body". I never quite understood this logic, though for the last three four years I have witnessed as well as experienced too many incidences of such occurance.

At the dinner with Harry, his four pound fish and New Zealand lamb chop, I have arrived at an energy parallel. At least I am happy with its logic.

Those with "clearner body" are those with better energy flow. Some with "smaller pipe" and some with "bigger pipe". Karma is an energy with scatter flowing directions internally. Karma by itself does not flow anywhere, and often worse, it hindered the proper flow of all energy. Karma will flow with any energy that flows.

When the karma flows through a smaller pipe, it may hinder the flow of the pipe. That is why I can feel physical discomfort at identical locations of the sufferer. Since October of 2006, I don't feel that anymore, because my pipe has become bigger. It became bigger because all the karma that I have shuffled through. Another witness of the fact that Chan always provides. Like a tree, when it needs to shade more animals with more leaves, its roots grows deeper and its trunk becomes bigger so that it could carry more nutrients to the leaves.

This growth of the "pipe" or "flow volume of Chi" is called merit in Buddhism.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Coolness

Ed was here for our usual Wednesday session. He shared the following with Emily.

"About one year ago, when I was really in trouble. My life was in a mess. The Korean monk that I meditated with did not return. My fear, anger and loneliness are out of control. My whole body was heated up. I was worried and hestitated when I found you on the net
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Then I came to have a talk with Donald.

As I was explaining what I was doing through for a short while, I felt this coolness coming from Donald and almost immediately, my heated sentiment was cooled down. I knew then, this was what I was looking for."

Ever since that day, Ed has been coming to our meditation session. He rises at 4:30am. Does motion Chan for half an hour and sitting Chan for another 30 minutes. All his addictions, anxiety attacks are under control. But he still managed to have "less unhappiness" and has not said that he is "happy" yet.

As to my "coolness" which Ed felt, I have felt nothing. I have no idea what Ed was talking about. I am glad that the life force of the universe manifested through me. If it did, I am grateful for both of us.

Joy

At yesterday's session, I shared my understanding of some of the history of our linage, our Master, our school. There was nothing related to what we could become or about enlightenment.

At the end of the session, Shilo told me that she felt so joyful and so happy. She did not know why.

I congratulated her to be able to connect with the present life force with her Inner Self instead of with words or concept with her mind.

Life force as an energy form is ominpresent. It is always joyful and providing without prejudice. All we have to do is to connect to it by surrendering our ego.

Friday, February 2, 2007

Words Are Useless

After nine month of reading, sharing and learning from four Yahoo discussion groups, I have learned that words are useless if used to indicate that we are the slaves of our mind. I am convinced that eloquence may stir up emotions, but useless when comes to wake up the true inner self.

I have also learned that sutras are but experiences resulted from a dedicated and right kind of practice. It is not the experience itself. Without right kind of practice, people may understand or comprehend the sutras. But at best, it may be just a logical comprehension of the mind and not a connection to the life force and wisdom of the universe.

I decided to meditate more. Because I have finally reallized that it is the life force itself does the manifestation and not the words or actions of mine.

No wonder Sister Young Lien keeps on saying, senior meditator must come to support every session.

People are transformed because of the power of this energy and not just words or concepts.